The past week or so I’ve been pretty low. Someone has been putting me down and that someone is… Me.
I don’t know if you experience it too but when I get down I can be very critical of myself. I am my own worst enemy.
I try super hard to not go there by looking for the positives in situations but after a few days where no matter how hard I tried little things went wrong, it got harder to find those silver linings. Those little things added up and before I knew it, I began to feel like an absolute failure.
Nothing major happened but the amalgamation of it got me down. In retrospect some of those things weren’t even worth getting worked up about.
I failed to get my blog post for yesterday ready in time, and I’ve been late with some of my Instagram pictures for this months photo challenge. I also changed my editing goal from three months to one month which caused the task to be too much and resulted in nothing getting edited.
Once I opened up to friends and family I realised I’m not alone. A friend invited me over for a cup of tea. My son’s teacher offered support and advice to help with some naughty behaviour. My husband has been acknowledging my achievements to get me to recognise what I have achieved. And, family has helped give me a break from my gorgeous little girl who is non-stop.
Here is the little lady, just turned 6 months and already coasting around the furniture!
Just because I’ve had a busy week, I don’t stop being a writer. I attended an online course and worked on improving my pitch. I did write two blog posts (plus this one) and today I edited a poem and seven chapters! And, I’ve caught up on Instagram.
What changed? I took some time to take care of myself and my wellbeing. As a result, I came back energised. I was able to tackle my problems and get motivated to write.
O my God she’s so cute ?
Thank you :)
You’re welcome ?
We need it sometimes – to pause & recharge. I think your relatives are right, you achieved a lot, just continue & take necessary breaks.
And yes, we always our own critics…
I’m sorry things haven’t gone well for you. I know how it feels – I’m my own worst enemy too, and I’ve always been critical of myself and my writing. I’m glad things are getting better for you. Best of luck with everything!
Thank you x
You’re welcome.
I can relate when you say “I’m my worst enemy”. Cause it’s so true. This post was really motivating. And it feels good to know I’m not alone.
Thank you so much. You comment is really motivating for me too xxx